Yvonne’s Adventures in CrossFit. ~ The Journey Continues ~ Dec 4-7, 2017

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Yvonne’s Adventures in CrossFit. ~ The Journey Continues ~ Dec 4-7, 2017

So this week, in addition to telling you all about my CrossFit experience, I’m going to write about something that happened to me.

It’s not something that happened per say, it’s something that I saw. And it upset me in a way I wasn’t expecting. Jessica, our wonderful Front Desk Manager, & photo taker extraordinaire took some pictures of the 5 pm class practicing the Hang Squat Clean.

First of all, let me start by saying that I love that she and others in the box take pictures. I don’t always have my phone handy, and it’s nice to be able to see me in action.  Today I looked at these pictures and all I saw was fat!  Fat everywhere!  Unhealthy, big legs, big belly and ugly!  I actually cried and didn’t understand how anyone wanted to see pictures of all this.

 

 

I went home and frantically Googled, “Fat Girls Crossfit.”Yes, I most certainly did and I didn’t see one picture that looks like this one.  Not one picture that showed anyone that looks like they have my body shape or type.  I was devastated because I kept thinking, “what the hell am I doing in the box looking like I belong at a weight loss facility undergoing some kind of testing.”

A few pictures and all of my badassness went away, just like that with the click of a mouse.  I found a couple of blogs of plus sized women trying CrossFit, but the biggest girl I saw was a size 18 with no belly and arm fat hanging.  I’m sorry if it’s too graphic for you, but those of you that CrossFit with me see it every day and those that don’t know me, well this is what I deal with. This is what I see in the mirror.

I’ve always been a big girl and I’ve always been confident in myself.  Even through all the bullying in school and even in public places, I’ve always been able to ignore it and move on with my life. However it’s days like today, and seeing that picture that break down all those walls that I’ve carefully constructed.  As the saying goes, a picture is worth a thousand words and today all those words were negative, mean and nasty.  A picture bullied me into crying and thinking that I didn’t belong with my CrossFit family.

The truth is that I don’t belong in a box trying to make my fitness dreams come true, I belong in a box to make sure that those pictures serve as notice to anyone, that ALL and I mean ALL things are possible whether you’re 100 pounds or 300 pounds.

I step into that box at the very least 3 times a week and sometimes I make a complete fool of myself but I do it; All 290 pounds of me!  I run during the warm ups, I try my very best when it comes to inch worms, I try everything at least once and I even fall on my ass when trying to Clean and Jerk, but I get up and show my face. I breathe hard and sweat more than most.

My hands, my back, my knees, my legs and my ego hurt every single day but I high five my coach and collect my things and I leave every day knowing that I am a part of the 4 million CrossFitters worldwide with only 19% of that in my age democratic.  It may not mean much to you, but to be a part of this CrossFit family has become one of the few things in my life that I control.  I can control whether I chose to be a part of a box or not.  I think I’ve chosen wisely.

I have a long journey and a lot of changes that need to be made but I’m committed to the process.  I’m crushing it one day at a time and I’m ok with that!

Monday December 4, 2017

The 30 minute chipper!  I initially came in early to work on my Power Cleans, because I really need to get that movement down.  I think I’m using too much weight and I’m losing the entire point so I wanted to work on it.  When I saw that Jen was coaching the WOD and saw that it consisted of some lifting I decided to join the 4pm class.  On the board today was the following;

30 Minute Chipper

1 mile run

AMRAP
100 double unders
80 air squats
60 pull ups
40 box jumps
20 clean and jerks
10 handstand push ups

I fell on my ass trying to do my first Clean and Jerk!!  Yes folks this is how this WOD started!!!  With a little help from Jen I was able to pull the rest off without my butt meeting the floor.  I chose to run instead of rowing, because I like that I can.

When I walked in here almost 6 months ago I couldn’t run and now I can, I like that.  I didn’t run the entire mile as I am still not that skilled, but I took short 30 second walk breaks like Drew suggested and I did it!  In 30 minutes I managed to do one complete round plus 12 single unders.  Not bad for falling on my ass!

Tuesday December 5, 2017

Ahhh…today was at the same time rough and easy.  Please read the start of this blog for the rough part.  The actual day was super easy in skill, but it sure did work me out.  The Hang Squat Clean is not easy by any means, but today we got to spend more time than usual making sure we worked on our form.  On the menu today was the following:

20 minute to max Hang Squat Clean

8 minute AMRAP

10 Toes to Bar or Leg raises

15 push-ups (hand release)

The 20 minute work on the Hang Squat Clean gave me a great opportunity to work on form.  I’ve been watching videos on these moves and I want to work on raising the bar level and not rounding.  I think I got it a few times today which really made me happy.  I was also working with a low weight and worked up to 65 pounds.  It was the lowest in the class, but my box mates have been doing this a lot longer than I have and are in way better shape than I am.  I managed to finish the day with 6 rounds plus 20, which made me feel AWESOME.  

Thursday December 7, 2017

The ladder again, only this time it’s for one of my favorites, the Back Squat!  I have to admit that I although I didn’t check out the website for the WOD today, I did see all the pictures online and I knew that the Back Squat was involved.  My current PR is 115 pounds.   

We started with a few warms ups, concentrating on squatting.  Coach Ryan mentioned that my mobility had improved.  He’s right.  I was able to squat lower than I ever had before.  It’s nice when your hard work is noticed. As I told Ryan, it’s thanks to all the ass kicking that my coaches at Wildcat give me.  I appreciate each and everyone of them!

Today’s Menu was:

The Back Squat Ladder

10 Reps @ 30% 1RM (one rep max)
9 Reps @35%
8 Reps @40%
7 Reps @ 45%
6 Reps @ 50%
5 Reps @ 55%
4 Reps @ 60%
3 Reps @ 65%
2 Reps @ 70%
1 Reps @ 75%
1 Rep @ 80%
3 Reps @ 85%

So this athlete right here PR’ed again!  Yes, that’s right I am up to a 120 Back Squat!  Man, I was so high off that WOD that nothing could bring me down.  I love pushing myself and getting to where I need to be was never so much fun!  I seriously walked out with so much pride that I was beaming!! 

It was an emotional week for me, but a successful one.  I’ve learned a little more about my ability to do all things.   I just have to remember that great things take time and not to let one little picture set me back.  I’m stronger then I was 5 months ago, my mobility is a lot better, and my confidence is higher than it’s ever been.  Thanks for coming on this journey with me!

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